have flooded into the rooms
the heavy tears inside
have creped through the doors of heart
i sit beside myself
and share the pain with myself
both me and myself feel lonely
both feel helpless
every morning i get up
i realize how much my body pains
how much my mind pains
how much my heart pains
how much the soul pain
They call out to me,
crying for help
And i like a destitute father,
watching his hungry kids weep,
i bear with howls
every morning i look in the mirror
i assure those sad eyes
to bear with one day more
to hide your feelings
for they might be played with
like a toy in hand of an ignorant baby
i pull those lips
and make them look like a smile
to create a tower of hope
what has crumpled into pile
i walk into light
when i am falling into darkness
i sit in cold room
when i shiver inside
i laugh , i make people laugh,
for i want to see them smile
else i would see myself in them
a few people like me
a few pretend they like me
a few dislike me
a few pretend they dislike me
It is scary when u feel lonely in the an empty desert
But it is painful when u feel completely alone, surrounded by everybody
you will feel sad when u found nobody loves you
but when you hate yourself, there is no love that can save you
Yet there is something i need
for i wake up everyday
i pull myself together
i lie to myself, hoping it would hope against all hope
the rain has stopped
i think i will walk
yet i know that clouds in mind
will keep on floating away
so everyday
I move in front of mirror
to put on a mask
to go through the routine once again
and walk over my pain
