Routine

the heavy rains outside

have flooded into the rooms

the heavy tears inside

have creped through the doors of heart

i sit beside myself

and share the pain with myself

both me and myself feel lonely

both feel helpless

every morning i get up

i realize how much my body pains

how much my mind pains

how much my heart pains

how much the soul pain

They call out to me,

crying for help

And i like a destitute father,

watching his hungry kids weep,

i bear with howls

every morning i look in the mirror

i assure those sad eyes

to bear with one day more

to hide your feelings

for they might be played with

like a toy in hand of an ignorant baby

i pull those lips

and make them look like a smile

to create a tower of hope

what has crumpled into pile

i walk into light

when i am falling into darkness

i sit in cold room

when i shiver inside

i laugh , i make people laugh,

for i want to see them smile

else i would see myself in them

a few people like me

a few pretend they like me

a few dislike me

a few pretend they dislike me

It is scary when u feel lonely in the an empty desert

But it is painful when u feel completely alone, surrounded by everybody

you will feel sad when u found nobody loves you

but when you hate yourself, there is no love that can save you

Yet there is something i need

for i wake up everyday

i pull myself together

i lie to myself, hoping it would hope against all hope

the rain has stopped

i think i will walk

yet i know that clouds in mind

will keep on floating away

so everyday

I move in front of mirror

to put on a mask

to go through the routine once again

and walk over my pain