Routine

the heavy rains outside

have flooded into the rooms

the heavy tears inside

have creped through the doors of heart

i sit beside myself

and share the pain with myself

both me and myself feel lonely

both feel helpless

every morning i get up

i realize how much my body pains

how much my mind pains

how much my heart pains

how much the soul pain

They call out to me,

crying for help

And i like a destitute father,

watching his hungry kids weep,

i bear with howls

every morning i look in the mirror

i assure those sad eyes

to bear with one day more

to hide your feelings

for they might be played with

like a toy in hand of an ignorant baby

i pull those lips

and make them look like a smile

to create a tower of hope

what has crumpled into pile

i walk into light

when i am falling into darkness

i sit in cold room

when i shiver inside

i laugh , i make people laugh,

for i want to see them smile

else i would see myself in them

a few people like me

a few pretend they like me

a few dislike me

a few pretend they dislike me

It is scary when u feel lonely in the an empty desert

But it is painful when u feel completely alone, surrounded by everybody

you will feel sad when u found nobody loves you

but when you hate yourself, there is no love that can save you

Yet there is something i need

for i wake up everyday

i pull myself together

i lie to myself, hoping it would hope against all hope

the rain has stopped

i think i will walk

yet i know that clouds in mind

will keep on floating away

so everyday

I move in front of mirror

to put on a mask

to go through the routine once again

and walk over my pain

From the eyes of the Silent Sage

My Mom shouted in a furious Rage,
When i said i want to live the life of a Sage.
No , not live like a monk or meditate on everything still
I had no desire to live upon a hill

All i want is to live fully my life
and not sacrificing my age for kids or a wife.
It does not mean that i will squander time running after girls
thinking about their eyes , singing after their curls

I want to understand the meaning
of my life, my dreams, my existence
Why i see life slipping away?
Why others pain feels like mine?

What is the meaning of true love
the meaning of true happiness
Why is it that the more you organize
the more ends up in mess

Why people need to be taught to be good
Why i am scared sitting alone
Why does it heart when someone leaves you
Why heart is not as hard as stone

Till i die, i want to see,
my Life from page to page
I want to view this muddled up world,
With the eyes of a Silent Sage

What am i ?

Why i feel guilty, I have no clue
Why i detest humanity as a whole
Why i want to cry for no reason at all
What all these years has been hurting my soul

The feeling of redemption for sins i dont remember
feeling as if lost someone close
Hearing Echoes in pindrop Silence
seeing invisible foes

I watch terrible dreams
of fights and wars,and blood on battlefield.
I cut down men with no remorse'
Their blood drips on my shield

I see a woman crying on a corpse
her wails and screams freeze me there
I see my hands covered in blood, my body grows numb
I realized, what i did, the monster I had become.

I Look around to see the people i killed
saw tears in their eyes
I killed their dreams, I killed their families
By ending up their lives

I did not hate the existence of war
For War did not kill them i did
I cried as hard as i could
I wanted to reverse this fate
I did not have the right to destroy
The lives i could create

I woke up from my Nightmare
staring into dark room
If this was my past,then i wish that someone could set me free
For i want to atone, with my life, for the sins committed by me

Anime- Samurai Champloo

A young woman named Fuu is working as a waitress in a tea house when she is harassed by a band of ruffians. Another customer, Mugen, offers to take care of them in exchange for food, but ends up instigating a brawl. Jin, a stoic young ronin in samurai garb, enters the tea house in the midst of the fight. Mugen attacks Jin after he proves to be a worthy opponent and they begin fighting one another, ignoring a fire that started during the brawl. They both faint from smoke inhalation. When they awaken, they find they have been arrested for the murder of Shibui Tomonoshina, the magistrate's son, and are to be executed. With help from Fuu, they escape and Fuu asks them to travel with her to find "the samurai who smells of sunflowers," a mysterious man Fuu can give little description of, but whom she insists she must find. They agree to join her, with Fuu making only one condition: they are not to duel one another until the journey is done

Anime - FullMetal Alchemist

Fullmetal Alchemist (鋼の錬金術師, Hagane no Renkinjutsush lit. "Alchemist of Steel"), is a completed Japanese manga series written and illustrated by Hiromu Arakawa. The world of Fullmetal Alchemist is styled after the European Industrial Revolution. Set in a fictional universe in which alchemy is one of the most advanced scientific techniques known to man, the story follows the brothers Edward and Alphonse Elric, who want to restore their bodies after a disastrous failed attempt to bring their mother back to life through alchemy.

Anime- Bleach

Bleach (ブリーチ, Burīchi^?, romanized as BLEACH in Japan) is a Japanese shōnen manga series written and illustrated by Tite K ubo. Bleach follows the adventures of Ichigo Kurosaki after he accidentally obtains the power of a Soul Reaper—a Japanese death personification similar to the Grim Reaper—from Rukia Kuchiki. Gaining these abilities forces him to take on the duties of defending humans from evil spirits and guiding departed souls to the afterlife.

Anime Fan - Naruto 1

Naruto (NARUTO -ナルト-, romanized as NARUTO) is an ongoing Japanese manga series written and illustrated by Masashi Kishimoto. The plot tells the story of Naruto Uzumaki, an adolescent ninja who constantly searches for recognition and aspires to become a Hokage, the ninja in his village that is acknowledged as the leader and the strongest of all. The series is based on a one-shot comic by Kishimoto that was published in the August 1997 issue of Akamaru Jump.